I’ve always hated that phrase, too much information. It’s usually said by somebody who is squeamish about body functions or your personal and disgusting habits. But we all have body functions and personal disgusting habits. I have no problem with people telling me about theirs.
But I’ve found that too much information is really hurting me now. I thought I knew all about the effects of infant male circumcision. I didn’t. I recently found this video, and it explained why my ejaculation is, as she describes it, an “on off switch” rather than a smooth ride to orgasm.
Interesting. Upsetting. The more I learn about the results of circumcision, the more I personally feel a deep and painful sense of loss. I wish I could simply ignore her description of the sexual act for an intact man as opposed to a circumcised me, but her description of what sex feels like to me is too spot on. That’s what it feels like to me. No smooth ride to climax, but hard humping waiting for something to happen and then, okay, here I come. An on off switch.
Masturbation has now become at times painful. I feel like I have to beat the little prick to death to get him to spit it out. Again, it’s an on off switch, not a smooth ride to the top of the roller coaster.
I’ve never before wanted to be ignorant about anything, but sometimes I wish I had remained ignorant on this subject. I’ve always loved sex. It’s been good enough. No, not just good enough, it’s been great. But now as I get older, I find problems that obviously come from having been circumcised and if I were ignorant they wouldn’t have the same sting. If I were ignorant, as I assume are most circumcised men, I’d just accept it as the way it is with being human. I wouldn’t feel so cheated and fucked over.
If you are a circumcised man, and I’m now making you feel cheated and fucked over, sorry about that. But join the campaign. This kind of thing has to stop. It was done to us, but it doesn’t need to be done to any more helpless babies.
Fucking doctors with their anti-sexual Abrahamic religion backgrounds, their smug assumption that they can fix things with surgery when no fixing is needed. Fucking parents with the smug attitude that they can do whatever they want with their baby, even cut off part of his genitals just to make him look more like daddy, though apparently that wasn’t the situation with my father. My father never allowed me to see his penis. He had a huge lump of body shame and I never even saw him in a bathing suit. I found out recently that he wasn’t circumcised. I’d love to know who sold him on the idea and how a smart man like him could accept it.
Ah, baggage. Let it go, Darwin. Let it go.